It'll All Make Sense One Day, Right?

Greetings and happy Sunday, beautiful people :) It's your girl, Kim Elliott with another blog and I pray that the transparency behind it, inspires you!

Just wanted to update you all on my life thus far and what prompted me to develop this blog. If you've spoken to me recently and/or read my blogs, you should know that I applied to medical school and was waiting on the response from the last school. However, I received an email a couple of weeks ago and similar to what the other schools said, I was rejected. Am I upset? Yes, I am. Am I disappointed? Yes, of course. Did a part of me already know that this was going to happen? Yes, sadly. But will I stop being obedient to the Lord and what He calls me to do in each season? No, never!

A lot of times we think that just because God has instructed us to step out on faith, that a blessing is attached to it but sometimes, that is not the case. Most of the time, God just wants to see if we are obedient enough to follow Him, even though we may not understand why or how. For example, because it was my first time taking the MCAT, my performance was terrible causing me to have skepticism about submitting my application(s). Primarily because I knew that the test scores were one of the most important factors regarding being accepted. However, I stepped out on faith and submitted my application anyway. I believe that I was more so disappointed because I expected to be accepted because I simply thought that a blessing was attached to my faith. But it's possible that not only was God checking to see if I was obedient or not but He also may have wanted me to view this season as a preparatory season. It's possible that He wanted me to get the feel for applying to medical school and taking the MCAT so that I wouldn't be stressed out when I decide to apply again. This time I won't feel pressured or pressed for time because I've already traveled this road and became familiar with it.

I will say that currently I am taking a break from social media and focusing on my relationship with God! Though social media has a lot of perks and positive attributes, if you aren't careful, it can be very toxic to you and your well-being. I will say that's the main reason why I'm taking a break from it. Lately I've been feeling even more depressed because I've been noticing all of the accomplishments from people who just graduated from college and are already with great jobs and acceptances to schools and here I am, completely stagnant. It even became so frustrating that I began to wonder "What is wrong with me? What am I doing wrong?". Please understand that I am not jealous one bit and I'm definitely happy for all who are achieving their goals but it's like "what about me?! When will my breakthrough arrive?!"

You know, I've been in this frustrating, dry season for almost a year now and though I am continuing to endure in spite of, it's becoming very old now lol. I always have to remind myself not to faint or become weary because though it may be difficult right now, my time is coming soon! I also know that God has to make you uncomfortable in some seasons because that's how we as Christians grow. God may invite us to seek Him as we are but He never wants us to stay that way. By stepping out on faith, though we may not understand yet still choose to endure during those dry seasons, little do you know that we are blossoming into people of faith, testimonies, strength and character.

So though I may not be where I've hoped to be currently, somehow I just know that where I am right now is where God needs me to be. It's not that I won't get accepted into medical school or won't be doctor, but I will be in His perfect timing and regardless of how I feel currently, that's okay with me. Of course it's not always easy to process as humans but when we begin to operate through the spiritual realm, we then start to understand the term "faith". Though you don't know when or how, you still have that desire to believe it will come to pass because God has promised it. None of His words ever return to Him void and He never gives out empty promises to His children. So while you are waiting for your blessing, just begin to be thankful for what you know will come in the future. Don't start praising Him when the blessing arrives rather right now, in the hallway.

Pray that this blesses you in more ways than one! May you all pray for me to remain patient and to keep enduring through this temporary season. Love you all and God bless <3